Today was the first day I started my revision. The final exam is coming in about 3 weeks starting from today. My condition is like "egg at the tip of horn" (ibarat telur dihujung tanduk). My internal assessments for all subjects are just beyond or equivalent to the passing marks, which is very very dangerous. I'm very worry with myself. I don't know what have happened to me since I started my university life. Seems like I don't belong here. Almost all my friends, especially from KMS, are far more better than me. I can say that I'm the lowest among the others. Ashamed with myself. I'm not supposed to be like this.
Last few days, I talked to my uncle. My mom told him about my 'bad' condition here. He tried to give motivation to me. One thing I really remember about what he said, lebih kurang macam ni la "dulu-dulu hebat masa kat sekolah sains, tak kan sekarang tak boleh".
Yes, I admit that that day was far more better than now. Even the IB program in KMS, I can still get better marks. But now, everything was a turning point. I'm no longer able to achieve that level. I always think that I can do better in other courses. Because the ways of learning in Medic by only 'reading, understanding (mostly not), and memorizing" are not my way. I love calculation and answering question based on understanding and opinions. Just like Math and Business Study. But after all, I'd chose this course. So no turning back. I've to fight for it. Allah has better plan for me and He knows what the best.
Actually, I don't want to talk about this thing. It only 'stored' in my thought each and every second of my day. But once I started typing, the thought automatically 'diffuse' into these words, without I'm expecting it.
I want to talk about my revision today. But since it’s quite late for Maghrib prayer by now, maybe I can talk about it later (maybe). Here I want to share a few photos that I took this evening, after went back from library. I’m too jealous with my friend’s photos that she took really nice yesterday. So I tried my best to get photos like her, but I don’t think I can produce better. Nothing interest me this evening. But anyway, I just want to share. Enjoy ^_^
p/s: the photos are all unedited, because I just format my laptop. Also, I accidentally deleted the installer for CS4. The CS5 installer got little problem. So I end up with no photoshop in my laptop, which quite ‘awkward’ haha….
7 comments:
Relax dan study..
Dont bother bout internal...
Aku punya internal 15-16-15...
Just study dan study... Fokus on UNIS>..
Hehe...
Jangan risau~
Insya Allah boleh~
thanks redz =)
Ko telah membangkitkan semula semangat aku, insyaAllah bleh buat, dengan izinNya
you know what to do, inshaAllah.
syazwan..same with me,masa mula2 ambik medic mmg geram n terpikir gak ar..oh i sooooo don't fit with this superdupermemorizing stuff :(
coz mmg akak nak jadi arkitek (since i'm 8 years old) as i'm more inclined towards drawing, geometry,beauty and arts stuff.. gile jauh beza haha!!!
and then,somehow even gile and susah mane pun medic tu,percayalah if we're destined for it,mmg Allah akan tolong :). dun worry,tapi usaha mmg kene because medicine itself is rapidly evolving and for me,something so unexplainable still.
=coz we're learning about God's innumerable and intricate greatness ;)
lucky us,rite?:)
so dun worry.insyaAllah :)
err,just nak bgtau yg objek api kat your background blog u mybbkan kami agak sukar ingin membace apa yg anda post sbb ia bertindinh ngan tulisan,...and it was quite annoying i think sbb kene scroll2 up up byk2 kali.haha
(komen jujur)
wankhai: i hope i know =)
kak ida: thanks kak ida ^_^
really appreciate your advice.
i think your case is quite the same with me, but seeing you have successful in your career, so it should be possible for me also to pass through it. InsyaAllah boleh. I'll try harder. And seriously I'd to change completely the way I study. It took me nearly one year to adapt to it. I hope it's not too late. Thanks a lot! =)
p/s: about the background, I also found it's annoying hehe, but too lazy to edit it back, but i'll, thanks for the honest comment =P
:)
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